1/4 of the way!

So tomorrow I will start my tenth week of pregnancy! I can't believe I am a quarter of the way through my pregnancy...I seriously feel like it was just yesterday that I found out we would be welcoming a new addition to our family! I wanted to post a picture of my belly but I have yet to take one...I rarely get "dressed" and don't feel like having my picture taken in my pajama pants! I have several things going on this weekend that require me to get out of my sweats so I will try to remember to have my husband snap a pic of my belly!

So I have a question...Josh and I are dying to know the sex of this sweet baby! I'm sure you can all guess that we are hoping for a boy since we already have two precious little girls...my question is...
has anyone ever taken the Gender Prediction test that you can buy at Walmart or Walgreens?? I looked it up online a few days ago and it said that it is best to take it around your tenth week so I was thinking about doing it next week...I am just curious to know if it actually gives correct results or not?? I'm not going to go out and start buying pink or blue based on the results...I just really want to have an "idea"...

As of now Kiley, my mom and I are all saying BOY!
I was SO sick with both of my girls...constant sickness for FIVE months...HORRIBLE! I haven't felt great with this one but 100 times better than with the other two!
With both of the girls I was in maternity clothes by 10-12 weeks...I am currently still wearing my size 2 jeans...as I type this!! I do have a "pooch" by the end of the day but nothing like before!
According to the Chinese calendar...it is a boy!
Kiley has said she was having a brother since we told her I was pregnant!

These are all just little things and right now I really have no idea what the little bean is...as long as it is healthy I will be happy with whatever God decides to give us!

Let me know if any of you have done the gender test or have heard anything about it!

133 BPM

So I got a call this morning around 10 asking me if I could be at the doctor for my sonogram by 11...I blurted out the words...YES...after which I remembered that my husband had taken my tahoe to work because his car couldn't make it in the snow...ooops! Anyways...my mom came to the rescue...once again...and made sure that I made it! She's great!

As I laid there on the table I honestly felt like I was going to pass out. For the past two weeks I have been wondering what was going to happen with this pregnancy but there was a certain about of hope in the not knowing the for sure answer...I have been in what feels like a constant state of prayer on behalf of my pregnancy and the well being of my unborn child. This is the moment I had been waiting for....

I laid there squeezing my husbands hand with my eyes closed...he and the tech knew I didn't want to look...right as my husband told me to open my eyes I heart a HEARTBEAT over the speaker...my baby's heartbeat!! At 133 bpm to be exact! I started crying...what an emotional mess I am! I have never been so happy to hear that noise in my life! Just two weeks ago I was told that my pregnancy might not be viable and that I might lose the baby and there I was listening to and watching its little heart beat! God is so amazing! I am so thankful for both of my girls but this baby will forever be my MIRACLE BABY! It still looks sort of "tadpolish"...but it has sweet little arm buds that will soon be waving at me and a bit of a tail...which will soon be turning into wonderful soccer playing legs! I love that little "thing"...we are going to name it tonite...I feel bad calling it an "it"!

So here's the deal...I am seven and a half weeks...due at the beginning of September!

I don't really know of anyone who reads my blog but I know there have to be a few of you out there...as my blog counter goes higher and higher everyday! Well to those of you that I know and to those that I don't....thank you so much for your support and prayers!

I will be sure to keep everyone updated as things progress...probably with more updates than you would like but...you don't have to read them all!!

Update!

I just wanted to let everyone know that my sonogram was canceled on Friday due to the bad weather...AKA...blizzard that we had at the end of the week! BUMMER! Anyways, I am supposed to call first thing on Monday morning to reschedule so hopefully I will get in sometime at the beginning of the week...keeping my fingers crossed!

I don't even know if anyone is followng my blog but if you are...I hated to keep you hanging through the weekend wondering what was going on! I would have posted this yesterday but we have been a bit busy around here...the whole city shut down due to the weather and we couldn't even get my Tahoe out of the driveway...needless to say, we were seriously SNOWED IN! That didn't stop us from getting out tho...we spent the day sledding, playing on the four wheeler and frolicking in the snow! What a wonderful thing to keep my mind off of the baby situation!

Hope everyone is having a good weekend! I am off to watch Miss America!

GO MISS TEXAS!!

THIS FRIDAY...

So my sonogram got moved up to this Friday...that's right...THIS FRIDAY! I have mixed emotions about it though...I want to know what the outcome is going to be but I am worried about what that outcome might be. I am beside myself right now...

And not to mention...we are expecting the biggest snow storm in TEN years tomorrow! I went to the store today and stocked the fridge, freezer and pantry in case we can't get out for a few days. And that worries me too...what if I can't make it to the sonogram bacause of the weather...oh the agony of having to wait over the weekend and who knows how long next week!

Okay, I feel better now! I am going to rest, watch my shows on DVR while Lily sleeps and eat some chocolate covered pretzels!

One down and one to go!

So tomorrow will be one week since my last sonogram...and unfortunately I have one more week to go before I can find anything out. The past week has definitely gone by faster than I thought it would be I have had my "ups and downs". I find myself constantly looking at the calendar and going over my dates, looking on the internet for stories similar to mine that have a good outcome and praying that the baby is already flipping around with a strong heart! I try to keep my mind off of it but it is just about impossible! I am trying to fill my days with reading books to Lily, puzzles and building with Kiley, keeping the house picked up and keeping good food in our tummies!!

Kiley starts gymnastics tomorrow and has school on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. I am helping host a baby shower on Saturday for a good friend who is expecting a boy in March and we will have dinner at my in-laws on Sunday night so hopefully this next week will fly by quickly without too many emotional days...those are super draining!

Thanks again for all the prayers...I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends and family!

From my heart!

Things have been such a whirlwind lately. We had a wonderful Christmas and New Year! We celebrated my sweet Kiley's fifth birthday on January 6 and my husband turned 32 on January 17! In the middle of all of this, Josh and I found out that I was pregnant...SUPRISE! We had discussed having another baby but we were in no way trying to get pregnant. Evidentally God's plan previals and His timing is not ours! Once the shock wore off, Josh and I were so excited at the thought of having another baby! We told the girls and Kiley was ecstatic! She kept telling Lily that she was going to be a big sister just like her! My girls really melt my heart...they are just so precious!

I started having some cramping and low back pain but didn't think too much about it since I was not bleeding. I called the doctor to see if it was normal and they wanted me to come in for a sonogram to make sure I wasn't having a tubal pregnancy. What happened next I was not prepared for. This is my third pregnancy so I know what to look for on the screen during a sonogram. I saw a black hole (gestational sac) with only a tiny dot inside...what the nurse called an "unidentifiable spot". According to how far I think I should be...I would have been 6 to 7 weeks but according to the measurements and the fact that there was no baby or heartbeat I was only between 4 and 5 weeks. I seriously thought I was going to pass out...i just knew something didn't look right. I was told that either my dates are wrong or that the baby was not developing and that I am going to lose the pregnancy. I lost it...I did. My first thoughts were "how do we find out"..."what needs to be done"..."I need an answer NOW"!! I was told that only time can tell and to come back in two weeks for another sonogram and hopefully my dates are off and at that point we should be able to see a yolk sac and hopefully a heartbeat. TWO WEEKS...are you kidding me! They said that cramping can sometimes be a warning sign and that I need to take it easy, drink a lot of water and rest...with TWO kids!

I went home that evening and cried and cried and cried! I can't even grasp the reality that my baby may not make it. I begged and pleaded with God to heal the baby and let this be a normal pregnancy. I am praying with all of my heart that my dates are off and that the next sonogram will show a healthy pregnancy. I am trying to think positive but I also know in the back of my mind that something could be wrong. I have never felt so helpless in my life...this is something I have no control over and all I want is for the baby to be okay. I have had to give this completely to God...afterall...He is the one kniting this sweet baby inside of me!

Please be praying for Josh and I and the baby! We are in desperate need of strength and peace as we wait to find out what the outcome will be. I hesitated sharing this with anyone but the way I see it...the more people praying the better! Thank you so much!

These are a few verses that have been in my mind constantly the last few days:

Psalm 139:13-14
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."

1 Samuel 1:27
"I prayed for this child and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him"

Jeremiah 1:5
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart..."

Ephesians 3:20
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine..."

Psalm 37:4
"Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart"

Psalm 18:2
"The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and my salvation, my stronghold."

Merry Christmas!

I don't have any pics to post today...I took some of the girls last night in front of the tree and a few today while we were out shopping with my dad BUT I have yet to learn how to use the card reader for my new camera so...maybe I will ask my husband to show me tonite!!

We have been busy little elfs the last few days...buying the last of the gifts for my husband and my parents...I can't say what they are because I know my parents read this and it has to be a suprise BUT I will take pics and show you after Christmas day! I have a feeling they are going to be a big hit!!

As I sit here typing this...it just started snowing! Nothing like snow to get you ready for Christmas!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas! I know it is being much anticipated around our house...Kiley can't wait for Santa but keeps reminding us that Christmas is about Jesus! Josh and I don't need to be reminded but I am SO glad that she understands the true meaning of Christmas! And Lily...well she just likes all the pretty ornaments and boxes...and as far as Santa goes...she is TERRIFIED of him!

Merry Christmas and God Bless!

Wondering!

I have no clue why my pics posted first....but I am too tired to go back and fix them!

Sorry!

This is Kiley's "model pose" in front of the Christmas tree...she is such the drama queen!

Here is my sweet Lily helping with the decorating!

Here is the mantle...partialy done!

I don't know why my husband takes such crazy pictures of us....maybe we are the crazy ones for posing like this!

This is the pic we used for our Chrisrtmas card....Reindeer Antlers!

Has anyone been wondering where we have been lately?

Does anyone even read my blog anymore??

Well for those of you that do...we are still here!

This is a crazy time of the year for us..
we have been super busy decorating for Christmas, sipping on hot chocolate, cuddling by the fire, reading Christmas books and watching all of our Christmas favorites!

This season always seems to fly by and I wish it would stick around forever!

There is not much to update on for the time being!

Kiley is doing wonderful in pre-school and had her last day today for the next three weeks...oh

my! Lily had her monthly weight check today and has actually lost weight since last month so we start feeding therapy again next week...hopefully they will be more aggressive this time and not release us until she is on the right track with her eating! So for now we will just be comfortable with her being below the negative fifth percentile for her weight and will hope for weight gain next month...even if it is only a few ounces! My heart sank today when I saw the scale...I just knew she had gained...WRONG!

Tonite we went to get hot chocolate and look at Christmas lights with my in-laws...Kiley was asleep 10 minutes into our adventure and Lily enjoyed herself for about 30 minutes....making the last hour miserable! But the poor baby does have a bacteria infection in her eyes and nose so that could have contributed to part of the upset!

I will leave you with some recent pics....enjoy your holiday season....I will try to be back before Christmas!

(the pics were at the beginning)!!

Randomosities!!

I haven't exactly taken the time to update my blog lately....with the exception of when Lily was in the hospital! I am not the "sit down" type girl...I am always on the go, playing with the girls and trying to keep my house in some form of order!

We are now approaching my favorite time of the year! I love fall, the leaves changing colors, the cool days and the overall "air" of the holidays!

I hope everyone is enjoying the beginning of the holiday season...
it goes by SO fast!

And oh...call me crazy but I have already started listening to Christmas music...
the girls and I dance to it daily!


My girls enjoying a tea party!
Santa told me that he is bringing them a cute new table for Christmas!


Here is my sweet Lily and her "bunny butt"...is it not the cutest thing you have ever seen???


Kiley and her friend Kelli...both little mermaids for Halloween!


She just loves making silly faces for the camera!


I absolutely adore this baby girl!!


Attempt number one!


Attempt number two!!


Attempt number three!!
I have no idea why my words are now underlined!!


Kiley pulling Lily at the pumpkin patch!
They are so stinkin' sweet!

So, that is about all for now!

Have a wonderful weekend!

Home Sweet Home!

We finally got home from the hospital Monday afternoon...yay!
Lily is feeling much better and is slowly getting back to eating and drinking!
That was a long 4 days and needless to say I am glad it is over!
It was so cold and dreary while we were in the hospital, oh how I wish we would have been at home having a fire and roasting marshmallows...but I guess we will have many more cold days to come!

My parents left this morning for their 30th anniversary trip to North Carolina, I am SO jealous...I need a vacation! My mom has been helping me take and pick up Kiley from school since Lily has been sick but my MIL is doing it today and tomorrow...that is a special treat for Kiley and she is really excited!

Kiley is taking her first field trip of the year to the Pumpkin Patch today, I really wish I could be there but I don't have anyone to watch Lily so I guess I am going to have to miss out on this one! She told me that she would pick me a really good pumpkin...what a sweetie!

I was looking at one of Kiley's school papers yesterday and it had a caterpillar and cocoon on it. I asked he what they were and she said a "patterpillar and a raccoon"...silly Kiley!

I guess that is all for now! Lily and I are looking forward to a day of hanging out at home...I probably won't even make it out of my pajama pants...and I am very okay with that!